Time for a change!!!

This is the gun I shot forgot where I got the photo... If your the owner please let me know so I can give credit or remove upon your request!

 New years is now a month in the past, my goals for them have long been forgotten or replaced.  Frank and I are activity TTC (trying to conceive a child) we have been trying ever since we got married but not that hard.  Regardless it does play tricks in your head, wishful, hopeful, or whatever it’s really frustrating. To know there are others out there who have waited longer and try harder I just can’t wrap my mind around it all it’s a huge roller coaster and that’s being nice.

Some things I have used to help me receive a BFP (big fat positive) that haven’t worked YET!!!  OPK (ovulation prediction kit) and lots and lots of sex!! I have lessen my caffeine intake lessen the smoking. Now the thoughts that are going through my head are extreme (for me at least)  What I have done, to myself throughout the years I’m sure has hindered a lot of my abilities to do what I want to do right now.  Really that’s one of my fears… I think it’s time to face that fear.  I was always told in the business world if you want a promotion you have to dress the part. Well I want a baby why don’t I dress the part now instead of waiting for a (BFP).  Being down this morning from getting the BFN hit home, I am stopping all of my bad habits, and replacing them with better habits.

I plan on walking the dog again daily before work to get the dog off my ass. Lol

I plan on working out some way or how (WII) for at least 30 minutes 3 x a week

also doing more activities (missed tap this year) but Going with Sadie to Yoga in a couple weeks.

No more smoking/ drinking/ all of those party habits that I started way back in the day. Done! No more.. I want a baby more than anything right now. The really nice thing is Frank is fully on board not only to support me but to do this with me. Well maybe not so much the work out part… but the stopping of the bad habits and building of some good ones.  Who knows with all this “Free time” we might have a cleaner home then everyone. I know I’ll need to keep busy.

I know these blogs have been getting long and longer reads. I just spill it all out don’t I? Guess I’d have it no other way!

A few weeks ago on another post I mentioned about getting my CPL got it!  Just need to head down town to get finger printed and then to buy a gun! I think I want the sig sour 9mm or the 226 / 229 that’s the one I shot and I loved it.  However my cousin Tommy is going to suggest another brand and kind of gun I think a glot. And will end up getting me one heck of a deal in his neck of the woods.  Along with franks Bday present of a nice shot gun!  The class itself was really cool it was more of a relaxed story telling type of class. Still, we learned a lot. The key is asking yourself if you didn’t have your gun how would you react. If you don’t say I would of floored it or grabbed a knife… If ever pulled into court they will say well why didn’t you just grab the knife instead of the gun, or why didn’t you run instead. The only time it’s acceptable to use your gun is if you’re going to die! So let me ask you again if you didn’t have your gun how would you react. Sir I would of died. Then you’re clear to use your gun! For the most part if you understood that, that is how touchy the law can be. These guns are not toys and not to be used as a toy. They do take it seriously. Within any giving situation you would want to use your gun in.

So that is the latest for the moment. Don’t hold your breath on anything it’s not worth it as much as I change my mind but the bad habits you can!  I’m done!  I know it will be hard but as a few very important people mentioned to me it might just be the best thing I do for myself alone this year. !