amazing how an accident can have such an effect on me! well it's my 10th accident and 1 of those 10 where my fault! the rest well stupid people should drive! even tho it would only leave a half a dozen drivers left on the road! I am so full of anger, hate, and self pity. You don't need hands to beat yourself up! I have done that all damn day! on the ferge of crying evey 10-15 minutes. pms well that could have something to do with it i started today! Joy us!
What is the point of anything me typing this, faith, anything and everything, is it so we stay alive, don't give a f*ck anyway! if everyone is just working to get food in the bellys or a roof over there heads, or to go to the bar or movies,, why it's pointless fun! if you even call it fun!
i don't remember the last time i had fun! i go to bars and pool halls and hang out even go karts... none is fun! i try to write a book, <- not really fun. try to paint<- not really fun just why do i even try anymore! motivation none!
i think i hate everything, i had a kind heart! but now i don't think so. it's black cold and full of hate! i hate my twisted little defaults that i have! i hate everything!
why do i live?
why?
can't hurt my self! people will get mad and sad.. yet they have a point to live. i don't!
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