Life

okay personal post now... just on my thoughts and joy of life.
i have house guest with me for a while.. i don't really mind but sometimes little things are taken for granted... example... i have pain pills in my drawer i don't use them much but i would like to have a couple on hand you never know when a body part doesn't want to work right for a day. but people need to ask don't just take say oh i will replace this later...
i went over someones house last night and i was thinking on my way home...
i pay the bills,,, i know i have set house rules i have a 15 year old a 18 year old and my aunt.. age is still unknown. i have rules for the 18 year old... i said this " you don't have a job,, your staying in my house. i do want this to be your home but your not paying rent so here are the rules... everyoneone of your friends/girlfriend must be out by 10:00 your brother has school and you are now sharing a room... you must be in by 11:00. i am the type of person who shows responsiblity by doing the same rules...
but now i'm like fuck that... i pay the bills it's my house why should i change my life style any more then i should. but i was home by 11:00 last night...
i guess i'll figure it out oneday...
on to a better note. i am chatting with this guy. and he seems very real. we have a lot in commmon. but i have to learn that not everyone out there is there to hurt me. i think once i get past that i'll be more at ease. just in case he is reading this .. i will stop there. i would rather talk about my feelings with him.. of course when the time is right.
so for now
mad luv!!!!