happy

well i took a risk and met some guy on the road last night... i guess taking
risks do make people happy!!!
weird tho today i have been happy all day so far!!! minus this morning when i
cried about my friend who now has the big C lukemia... she starts kemo next
week!
she is my oldest friend and she is a year younger then me!
but i guess that is life!!! it makes me want to live my life more to the
fullest!!
who cares what people think who cares what people do.. i'm going to do what i
want to do for now on! if i come of as a bitch or rude or with an attuite!!!
i guess they will be the onese that will have to learn how to deal with it!!
i am going to be my fucking self for now on!!! so everyone else can suffer!!
i don't want to be a bitch or mean but if that is how other see me then so be
it!! that isn't what i want but i guess i don't see it i just try to be
myself!!!