a wall

why is it I always feel like a wall...
I mean I say something an it seems like no one listens... it hurts my
feelings so bad! makes me feel like I'm a piece of shit wait no that would be
something not good but when I don't get a confirmation on what I tell other
people I feel like nothing!
I get very sad at that time then really mad!!!! thought that was suppose to
be the other way around first mad then sad!!! I start with tears then a fist
cuz I get pist.
it too the point that people cut me off while I'm talking not just once in a
while all the fucking time! it's like I'm nothing or just a wall!
it's just so fucking rude of people!!! and when I do say something people say
"what is with the attitude... why are you so bittch..."

sometimes its hurtful funny if I say "do you want anything from the store?"
what do I get in return... a response like this " will you go to the store?"
ummm thanks for not listing!

or one of these "I am going out on friday night to the club. i'll be leaving
around 9 pm"
some time will go by and then i'll get this
So what are you doing friday nite"

would that piss you off? i mean i just said what i was doing and the next
thing you ask me is what i just told you!!! goodness that realy makes me want
to like myself!!!

sometimes i really do hate myself!!!
to bad no one really cares!!! sad thing is sometimes i don't even give a fuck
about it either!!!

mad luv to who ever!!!