Juicing and my vent.

Juicing, is fun but it does take some getting use to. I started to drink this one juice Apple, Carrot and beet. I get it for my drink at lunch at least 1 time a week and it's really yummy. I was reading up on all the foods we eat and not that i'm turning into a health nut but to be at least mindful of what i'm eating is a great start to a healthier diet. I found a lot of people use juicing as a detox and they  do a juice fast. I'm like i can drink it fast. no that means not eating anything else. HAHAHA as if. i like to chew way to much for that. But what i am going to start doing is adding 4 juices a week. Ideally i'd like to do 1 a day, but some of the juices i have made just well are not that delish.. I made a pineapple juice this morning. and it was good but i don't think i'm use to the freshness that this gives. everything taste "green" if  you know what I mean.. so fresh and the sugars in the fruit juices that i make are  A LOT! so I really do need to add the veggies. So Here's to juicing and incorporating it into my lifestyle!

No for my rant/vent. I found out someone close to me is preggers or preggers again. I was sworn not to say anything to anyone. but I found out the day i started 4 days late. i was really hopeful this time but apparently it's not the time for that. or i would be. I guess i'm upset because practically all my friends have kids now. They are either to busy with their kids or don't want to go through the added work to bring their kids to hang out or do anything. Not all my friends of course but sometimes it just feels that i'm the odd one out and i'm not even wanted because i have the kid free life. Goodness that hurts but it's how i feel .. and it has me wondering if i don't have kids will my friend become a past time.  I am sure most mothers have that feeling as i see not even half of them having time for themselves. But this isn't about this this rant is about me and how i feel. and I feel alone. It has me questioning everything my morals my desires my wants my reasons for living. Am i doing the right thing am i going on the right path. And what can i do to get on that path if it's not the right one. Should I do this or that everyone says to but it's not what my heart truly wants.  so I"m torn between myself and other peoples expectations.

Which brings me to the latest quote ..  a poster found at the acres that my dad found

I do my thing, and you do your thing, I am not in this world to live up to your exceptions, and you are not in this world to live up to mind.  You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful. 

So I need to remember that! So that's that.. my friends are too busy being moms and i'm too busy being stubborn. LOL
On the other side 2nd appraisal is complete and i'm hoping to get the results today so we can move forward with this house stuff!